Wed 4 Mar 2009
I spent this evening googling articles by a young poet named Cristian Wiman after having read his recent contribution, God is Not Beyond in the latest issue of The Christian Century. Here is an excerpt from that article:
“Our natures—and nature itself—are not
corrupt but unfinished. “All Creation groaneth and travaileth
together,” says Paul, which is exactly right. But also this: all
creation, including every atom of our selves, groaneth and travaileth toward
something—not toward some ideal existence from which “sin” has
irretrievably separated us, and not toward some heaven that is simply
this existence times eternity. No. Faith is not faith in some state
beyond change. Faith is faith in change. That this welter of
cells entails for us great sorrow and difficulty is true. That
uppercase Life requires our lowercase ones is beyond question. But
there is great joy in this ongoing apocalypse as well (apocalypse,
meaning to uncover, to reveal)—joy in reality’s abundance and
prodigality, in its atomic detail and essential indestructibility, and
in the deep implicit peace whose surest promise is the miraculous
capacity we have—in a work of art, a gesture of love, or any of the
other ways in which we acknowledge the God who is this ever-perfecting
process—to imagine it.
…
You continually seek something that
will resolve your anxieties once and for all, will push you over into a
consistent and comforting belief. You read book after book, you seek
out intense experiences in nature or in conversations with people whom
you respect and who seem to rest more securely in their belief than
you. Sometimes it seems that gains are made, for all of these things
can and do provide relief and instruction. But always the anxieties
come back, are the norm from which faith deviates, if faith is even
what you could call these intense but somehow vague and fleeting
experiences of God. You have forgotten, or perhaps simply will not let
yourself see, what true faith is, its active and outward nature (as
opposed to active but inward, which is what all of those activities
above are). Do not pray to be at peace in your belief. Pray that your
anxieties be given peaceful outlets, that you may be the means to a
peace which you yourself do not feel.
…
There are definitely times when we must
suffer God’s absence, when we are called to enter the dark night of the
soul in order to pass into some new understanding of God, some deeper
communion with him and with all of creation. But this is very rare, and
for the most part our dark nights of the soul are, in a way that is
more pathetic than tragic, wishful thinking. God is not absent. He is
everywhere in the world we are too dispirited to love. To feel him—to find
him—does not usually require that we renounce all worldly possessions
and enter a monastery, or give our lives over to some cause of social
justice, or create some sort of sacred art, or begin spontaneously
speaking in tongues. All too often the task to which we are called is
simply to show a kindness to the irritating person in the cubicle next
to us, say, or touch the face of a spouse from whom we ourselves have
been long absent, letting grace wake love from our intense,
self-enclosed sleep.”
You should also check out two other articles that he wrote:
Gazing into the Abyss – an account of his journey towards faith and hope
This Inwardness, This Ice – a chilling poem; make sure and listen to him reading it.
Notes on Poetry and Religion – brief snippets of brilliance
This last quote comes from his article entitled, My Bright Abyss:
“In fact, there is no way to “return to the faith of your childhood,”
not really, not unless you’ve just woken from a decades-long and
absolutely literal coma. Faith is not some remote, remembered country
into which you come like a long-exiled king, dispensing the old wisdom,
casting out the radical, insurrectionist aspects of yourself by which
you’d been betrayed. No. Life is not an error, even when it is. That is
to say, whatever faith you emerge with at the end of your life is going
to be not simply affected by that life but intimately dependent upon
it, for faith in God is, in the deepest sense, faith in life—which
means, of course, that even the staunchest life of faith is a life of
great change. It follows that if you believe at 50 what you believed at
15, then you have not lived—or have denied the reality of your life.”
March 4th, 2009 at 6:47 am
wow. Thank you so much, Furnal.
you made my day. and I was already having a pretty good day.
“Life is not an error, even when it is.”
beautiful.